Back to work

Boy - Back to work on Thursday. I can't believe it is 12 weeks since I had doodlebug.

I think the first week shouldn't count since I hardly remember it, and we were in the hospital the whole time anyway. This was pre-blog, here is the short version. Doodlebug was 5 weeks premature, which isn't super early. He had hypoglycemia, which is low blood sugar. This can cause brain damage and death if not caught early. Most hospitals test for this immediately after birth, so it rarely goes uncaught. Usually one or two feedings will correct this, and once it is corrected it is never a problem again. Doodlebug didn't correct after 2 feedings, so was put on an IV. He needed to be stable off the IV for 48 hours before release, so we were there a total of 6 days waiting for him to stabilize. I don't want to overplay it, there were babies that were FAR sicker than him, but it was difficult.

The funny thing about having a kid that no one tells you is that the emotional bond you have immediately is pretty freaky. I am honestly one of the most placid people you could meet. I generally don't react to anything overally emotionally. I complain about things, but I don't cry easily, I usually reason everything out. One of the reasons I picked the hospital I did was in case something happened, we were 11 minutes away, we could visit easily if needed. The day I was to be released and Doodlebug wasn't, I woke up crying so hard I couldn't stop. My husband went and got a nurse and she gave me some medication and sat and calmed me down. My husband joked that it was nice to see that I wasn't a cylon. :)

Anyway - this going back to work is going to suck way more than I expected. Doodle is getting more and more interesting everyday. He greets me every morning with a smile, he recognizes me across the room. While I think I will be a better mom for working, I hate that someone else gets to spend so much time with him. I just want everything - is that wrong? I do really like his daycare lady. She seems wonderful, he really warmed up to her right away. I've seen pictures of her family on facebook, and her kids seem very happy. Other kids she takes care of have been with her for years. I'm hoping for a long term relationship.

St Pats, holiday

So I had a bunch of friends over for St Patricks day, very belated. It's so good to see & hang with friends that you get to see rarely. I tend to get stuck in my patterns and miss the trees in the forest. Doodlebug was a little crabby. I think he is going thru, or getting ready to go thru a growth spurt. He is sleeping a lot,which he hates, and he is next to never crabby. He did get passed around a lot, he likes the attention that is for sure. I hope he keeps that openness about strangers (at least strangers I say are ok!). I would hate for him to be all clingy and dependent.

The corned beef turned out awesome. Everyone was very complementary - I wish it was harder to cook so that I felt I deserved the praise. I mean, the hardest thing is pretty much chopping the potatoes up. Crockpots are the greatest invention ever. I cooked 20#s and only have enough left for a couple of meals for T & I.

I find myself at odds today. I go back to work in a couple of days, I finished nearly everything that was on my "I must get done before I go back to work" list. I'm not looking forward to leaving him at daycare, I will miss him a lot more than I expected to. That little smile when he sees me upon waking makes everything better. I don't want to do anything @ home, there is another snowstormgoing on out there, so I don't want to do anything out there. I think I'll throw in a movie and wait for doodlebug to wake up. We gotta cram an additional 2 days of playing into this week.

babies

I just hosted our "baby lamaze" class reunion. Everyone has had their babies by now, and they all met up. Doodlebug was interested, a little concerned with all the activity, but not overly so. It was really fun to see everyone again, and especially to see all of the little ones. Doodlebug was early, so he was the smallest baby. He was on par with everyone for where he is at developmentally, which was nice to see. The doctors all said he would be, but it was still really nice to see.

So tired and I need to get up early to make corned beef and cabbage. Doodlebug (why didn't I pick a shorter nickname?) came early, which made it nearly impossible to host St Pats day on or near St Pats. Solution - reschedule for Ts birthday, 1 party, 2 milestones. Awesome planning on my part..... :)

Music tastes & corrupting our young

Mom of an almost 3 month old. I gotta get going on converting him to my ways before his dad gets him. We listened to me mp3 player today. My thoughts are that the first music you are subjected to is what you learn to like. I like the 80s, most pop and thanks to doodlebugs grandma, bubblegum 60s.

He liked most everything today - Prince included (I am so going to hell) but hated Joss Stone. Just a funny observation. Gotta see how Britney fares, Avril went over very well. :)

Starting this

I keep saying I am going to do this, and yet don't. It was on my list of things to do before going back to work from maternity leave, and I have exactly 6 days left, so YEA, mission accomplished.

I thought I'd have lots of time. Boy - do those little humans take up a LOT of time. You get your one thing accomplished, and then it is time to start the whole process over again. I wouldn't change it, but for all the preparation work I did, I really wasn't prepared for the reality of a complete lack of energy, brain power, etc.