Kieara

Last year my cube mate Kieara was diagnosed with cancer. She had gone in for a hysterectomy and the docs were unable to do the procedure laproscopily (however that should be spelt). So when they went in surgically, they found her to be stage 4. She gave it a good fight, tried the chemo, went thru several specialists, and lost the battle after FOUR months. She was fairly young, mid50s and has this wonderful family. Her daughter just got married, one son got married last year, the other son is in college. Her funeral was 3 days before I had Doodlebug, my blood pressure was very high the day before the funeral, the docs were a little worried. I made it thru the funeral, crying a LOT. So - I missed a lot of the sadness around the office, as I was home on maternity leave. I healed at home in more ways than one.

Her husband came in today to say hi to everyone. He looks good, but you can see the sadness in his eyes. It is so difficult to find things to say to people that aren't a cliche. But then, I guess they became a cliche because they are the only things to say. I had a difficult time getting pregnant with Doodle - fertility doc and the works. We didn't have to go as far as IVF, just IUI. Kieara was the only person @ work that knew what we were doing and going thru the various tests. She was the first person I told I was pregnant (besides the husband, but only because he was smart enough to answer the cell phone the morning I did the home test). She prayed for us to get what we wanted most, and from some people that would sound contrived, but Kieara was sincere in her hopes and prayers.

Being back at work with a new cube mate that isn't her is sad. I miss her. She never got to meet Doodlebug.